i wont put today into my memory.
so i shan't blog about today.
=)
Saturday, December 30, 2006
so i shan't blog about today.
=)
Jared came over the whole day.
he's sucha intelligent creature i tell u.
LOL.
he's so cute when he poo poo!! LOL
and he sings!! more like screams.
show u his video when i can upload. =(
yawns*
i'm so tired today. for hell i dunno y.
nights ppl.
it's onli one day and i feel like shit.
boo-boo.
Friday, December 29, 2006
=(
voila!!!!!!!!!!
i spend plentiful days with J. =)
heh.
but i still miss him
and
i miss sabrina.
and zhangxi.
and guanyi.
Jared is coming over tml!! weeeeeee.
see u tml u incy-wincy spider.
P.S.
i'm not going to post it up.
but u noe i was born to make u happy.
Wednesday, December 27, 2006
i'm supposed to meet up wif my project mates including irene for our project.
but kelvin said he couldnt make it at the las min. cos his car broke down or sth.
aww~ thats soooo sad.
but it's ok....because i'm so glad tt u arent free, and i hope u will nv be...hey good rhyme! haha.
J got a haircut at shirley mah from Sharks Fin. Ah Wang!!! haha. nah, still not bad la! dont frown!
2007 is coming! to Singapore!!!
i will be 19, den after that 20.........i'm closer and closer to ageing. OH NO.
anywhere to go? to go to go to go???
I'M HIV POSITIVE.
Shifting?
Tuesday, December 26, 2006
good night peopleees!
today is a damn cold day.......yes??????
and it rain for the whole day todae............enough to fill up the whole pacific ocean. =(
i'm juz home from a movie!
went town wif baby to swop his charger.
ur charger is lousy!
i dare u to blame us for that.
oh.
i nv thought Eragon was gonna be nice.
the dragon's name is serephy or sth.
anyway. it's good to have a dragon as ur pet bcos u can have someone to FLY u to sch so u dun hav to kp wishing u can fly and giv urself a nickname called "icanfly" -__-"
and then u oso wont get jammed on the road, and wont have to squeeze in the train with the passengers.
also, u can start a fire almost straightaway with the help of ur dragon.
so u wont have to use stones and sticks to try to spark some fire.
then oso no one will dare to bully u, bcos ur "serephy" will protect u.
unless u are killed, bcos if u die, ur dragon will also die. "rather us, than you"(*oops, i revealed abit of the story. haha)
anyway, i like the name serephy, i might name my daughter that nez time. DONT laugh...HAHAHAHA.
we ate at "The Manhattan" at PS. something like Fish & Co. and we ate the seafood platter, oso something similar to that of Fish & Co's.
not nice!!.
but i met my fren, er........my classmate, er.....more like schoolmate, who happened to work there. and i dun even noe his name. LOL. but whatever it is, i still noe his face and he recognise mine so i got a 10% from him. Haha.
i'm off!
shifting!
Monday, December 25, 2006
i havent sleep till so late till the afternoon already!
damn shiok.
woke up at 3 plus in the afternoon.
yday was christmas day eve!
went to Aunt's house wif J in the evening. hmm..no turkey =(
he bullied my cuzzies with the PS game, be4 we left for aiwee's house.
boo, can't get to eat the log cake i bought. mummy said it's nice.
anywaaay, there werent much to be done over at aiwee's house also.
after countdown, we played dee poppers.
den played "Life" board game with the girls.
i lost la,damn. i reached the destination last. i got no kids, and i'm not the one with the most assets. haha.
i hope my future dont become lidat. hoooooooooooooooo~ i wan babiesssssssss.
it's already dawn when we cabbed home already.
yawns.
nt realli feeling well.
decided to spend the day at home for xmas today.
a plain old christmassie day. =S
i muz say, it's reali a shift. =)
*POOF
Sunday, December 24, 2006
a good noon and merry xmas eve to u ppl.
:P
i slept for onli 4 hrs but i'm uber alert. someone tell me why. LOL.
anyway, Xmas tis yr is lousy.
santa can u hear me?
i have been so good this yr.
and all i wan is one thing.
tell mi my true love is near.
he's all i wan juz for me.
underneath my xmas tree.
i'll be waiting here,
santa tats my onli wish this yr.
santa is a liar! hahaha.
this is my fav xmas song this yr.
Saturday, December 23, 2006
*yawns.
morning.
i woke up at 10am today.
my biological clock seems to hav an alarm set for me ever since school.
*wince. i wanna slp longer!
u're the best, cos u nv sleep, and ure alwaes here. WIDE GRINS.
i love these pics. arts.
i'm here again.
help me, help me!!!!
sabrina went ShangHai. lucky her.
gy is not online, zx is not online.
no one i wanna talk to is online!!!
game and more game! BAHHHHHHHHHH.
nvm. u talk to me ok????
show u my kuku hair.
i'm a DODO Bird.!!!
Hi Miss DoDo.
Friday, December 22, 2006
i'm a bored girl again today.
and bored girl do nothing. bcos.
theres nothing in the house right now that can kp me company.
not even food. i am not the least bit hungry.
so i overcome the house. i vacuumed the house, & i mopped the house.
now, i'm back here all over, typing like a Bored girl again.
GRRRRRRR.
i'm gonna meet him later. weeeeeeeeeeee.
Hey,
dont, love me for i love u.
love me for the only girl.
love me for a reason.
&
let the reason be love.
ha.ha.ha.
bye bye. i'm going to shower.
Thursday, December 21, 2006
i'm home! from my haircut.
i met up wif zx and gy in the afternoon to try on their new fasio uniform.
it's ugly! =)
it's ok for me to say that, bcos they think so too.
after we took the shuttle bus back from great world to orchard, zx left us to meet her fren. while i obliged to Miss G's request to go get her fav Fried Mars Bar, b4 goin back to Shirley Mah for our haircut.
it's freaking sickening to walk in the drizzle all the way back to the bus stop. but nvm. i caught up alot of gossips and news i missed out from ggy. LOL.
i dunno y the hell shirley mah is owaes packed with ppl. (oh i tink tt salon should change its name, imagine calling a shop shirley..)
raymond looked so.............fagged out. poor him.
anyway, he was so busy tt he got Gy another hairdresser. sharks' fin. haha. i dint type tt word in the wrong place, becos his name is called Sharks' fin. LOL.
but Gy prefers his cutting style, so all the merrier!
anyway, i'm stil not used to my new hairstyle yet.
he gave me a semi-circle hair cut.
does it make me look bitchy? i hope not!
X(
den, i kindly obliged to Miss G's request again for her craving, of indian rojak. so we went to the coffeee shop nez to it. MISS G I BROKE MY DIET RULES 2 TIMES TODAE JUZ FOR U. LOL
tt shows how much i love u.
bye ppls.
i go miss him liao.
AHAHHAHAHHHHAHAHA.
Wednesday, December 20, 2006
wah..
yday was a simple outing with the girls. kbox singing!
hehe. they stil look so gorgeous.
but unfortunately, i couldnt follow them back to westmall. cos my ezlink card has got no more value N i'm kinda beat N furthermore it's pouring terribly.
den today was another normal day. went to meet up with him and he got his psp. lol.
BORING BORING!!!
BAH.....bye ppl.
i go crap.
*baby, i'm still believing
Tuesday, December 19, 2006
hmmo, bb slept early today.muz be tired, poor him. dun train too hard!
woo~
today mommy rocks!
and i dun say tt juz becos she bought me stuffs.
but.............ok i said it todae becos she bought me stuffs. HAHAHA.
we got up early to make a new IC tt i lost.
waste $100 for a useless card. nd lik i said i wish the person who took my wallet can jolly well suck my toe bird shit. u could do the least kindness n return me my IC! but any-oh-how it's too late alr.
ok my passport size foto in my IC turned out like shit like i predicted yday.
and imagine! this IC is probably gonna be wif me for my life!!! (bcos the 2nd time u lost tt bloody card the penalty will be $300. yea i noe. SCREAM!) so u better PRAY hard tt i dun lost it again....
yea so where was i? right, i look damn ugly.my hair looks like fuck oso. nez time i post up on the blog for u ppl to see HAHA.
anyHOOOO.....we went Bugis after that, then! mommy bought me lots!!!! i bought 2 bags, one bottom, one top, and 1 overall dress u call tt? cost her over a hundred leh!
damn shitty good hor?! I LOVE HER.
cock. i veri lazy to dscribe all the things ive bought. HAHA. but i like tt overall!
den my kor kor come fetch her home, while i go town to meet J for a movie.
the holidays is nice!!! i din feel the slight bit to sleep though, and tts good enough. haha. it got me entertained la. watch ok ppl?
den we went home alllllready. hmm.............*hugs hugs* X)
TODAY..rain rain rain whole day.
*rain rain go away,
come again another day,
little fei min wants to play.
Sunday, December 17, 2006
woots.
i miss an entry yday.
saturday is officially the start of my holidays! its such a blessing yo~
anyhoo, i went to the Nike sale at Expo wif J and Wk. it's quite a disappointment. y? bcos u travelled al the way down from the west juz to find some pathetic sports apparel and..........MORE pathetic ones lo. =P
we went to the City Harvest Church service later at another hall of Expo. and boy~ m i amazed by their.......devotion to Jesus. i think about 80% of those who attended were humans our age. and their la-ba-la-ba-ka-la-pa language. LOL. i'm juz feeling new to all these, no offense. so...........ya. X)
then we went Wisma for dinner. my noodles were untouched but i'm full. LOL.
i think nowadays if u feed me a fishbal i will b full already.
we dilly there and dally here be4 going home. =)
and todae! menses sucks to the core.
disgusting shit.
does my mood gets foul easily? hmm...i didnt realise.
and today is granny's birthday. her 80th bday! imagine living in this world for 80 yrs. incredible.
went for a dinner at some restaurant, i dun realli lik the food.
but it's been so long since i see THOSE faces. lol. so heartfelt.
okok.
i'm bored, dun feel like blogging alr.
i'm gonna make my IC tml!
i dun really care, my face's gonna turn out pretty ugly anyway.
muacks ppl.
miss ya J! X)
Saturday, December 16, 2006
BOO.
it's over! exams!! SHIOK BO?! shiok la! i can finally kick off my books for 2 weeks and snuggle underneath my blanket till like dunno how late.
but someone wont be very free to acc me though. hmmo.
anyway bonus point. i think i faired quite well for todae's paper. woooo-eee.
went out liyi and irene to queensway for dinner. it's been like dead long since i went out with them. they still veri peanuts. HAHA. veri funni. anyway queensway shopping centre sell all the lousy things like sports wear, i felt like falling asleep while walking. den, so, after that, as a result, later on, we went to play in IKEA. all the sofas are damn comfy man~~
oh ya, we watched abit of Tom & Jerry before leaving the place. HOHO.
after that, mi went to meet up J in school.
we wanted to go town and we did, but we took more than an hour. because of the pathetic jam.
by the time we reach it's nearly ten. so dampening~~
he didnt get to eat his dinner at far east & had it at long john, but ANYWAY, he stil got himself 2 tops. should be able to append for that.
we met up wif weichoon a lil while at taka. so sad, didnt get to meet his ger ger. X) okok kidding LOL.
after he left home, and after awhile of indecision on which transport to take, we MRTed home.
i took a cab at jurong east when theres no more trains. tsk.
i trust u la~
y wouldnt i? X)
Thursday, December 14, 2006
yay! one more paper down!
but BOMB!!!!!!!! i think i will flunk it. =(
yay i hate LEDs.
i'm leading a boring week bcos of exams........
& i miss humans. i miss my missys. aaannnd i miss that precious one!
(no wk...not including u)
& oh! i'm down by another kg! heh.
i'm a beautiful swan. X)
hmm..do you noe do you noe??
that u're indispensable.
i juz realise......that i couldnt afford. to lose u.
what the hell u mean so much to me.
Wednesday, December 13, 2006
i'm home the whole day todae!!
this is not the way to deal with me please.
Tuesday, December 12, 2006
hmmo.
u can never get me what i want for xmas.
=)
Monday, December 11, 2006
DANG AGAIN!!
i'm done with my DCNT paper! i can nail it to da back of my mind. WEEEE~
two more papers to go. on da thurs and fri. can i forward time? hmmo..
anyway.......exams just STINKS la. stinks more than shit.
i juz realised, after a weeny bit of studying tt i noe NUTS about my nez module on thurs.
i wanna enjoy life. =(
okokokokokokok. i'm so desperately lonesome and bored today. =
=( =)
hear me out.
anyhoo, i watched "So u think u can dance" on tv juz now, and i'm so mesmerised and "entwined" into the dance of Ivan and Allison. they did the dance genre "contemporary".
like u can so wish u are the girl.. or the guy (if u are a male). being embraced. awww..heh.
den! i watched tat new show hosted by Rosalyn and tt xia xue? it freakin made me laugh. xia xue's still ugly though.
All-sow! i'm sOO bored by how i look when i look at myself in the mirror. it's fugly.
so i went to change the parting of my...hair/fringe. HAHA. i look like crap.
i wish................that theres gonna be snow this yr for xmas. HAHA
nah......i wish..................are u supposed to wish on xmas??!!
NVM. i stil wish.....................
am i doing what i am supposed to?
i wish i wasnt. so i wouldnt feel this way.
&
what will u say to a crazy girl?
cherish my love.
Sunday, December 10, 2006
DANG!
i'm here again.
this is bad. i havent been studying much.
i dun feel any sense of urgency..hmmo.
maybe its all juz insecurity.
i went over it once.......WHATEVER. like studies is even stuck in my brain at all.....
IT'S YOUuuuuuuuuu.
poor thing. u must be soooooooo tired. to be running in my mind all the time.
weeeeeeeeeee.
and i'm missing my missys too~.
BYEBYE.
Saturday, December 09, 2006
i am a veri lazy girl.
i dun wan to study leh..how?
boo-boo.
Dear blog,
it's damn shit ok.
i miss him la.
tak boleh liao~
Is it wrong how I want you
When it feels so right being close.
it's 12am.
Happy 3rd!!!
i alwaes knew we could do it.
*hugs*
heh.
todae all things fails.
i went to school in the mornin. without taking my breakfast cos i was lazy to.....poor myself a milk or sth. LOL.
so i took the pills for my acne on an empty stomach.
den on the bus i wan to throw up so terribly! =( it's like....i can juz throw up inside the bag of the guy beside me. y? bcos i wont throw up in my OWN bag, silly.
okok but thats not the point. i havent feel so uptight be4. i was frowning the whole way bcos the vomit is halfway in my throat.
and i threw it out in school. al the white foam.
then, when i went for my soldering class in the morning i burnt my fingers!! part of my finger turned white, my lecturer said those are cooked meat. can u imagine how hot. Argh.
and after sch i went to PS to wait for my girlies but went home bcos they were having their job interview and might take quite some time so i decided to go home first, cos i wasnt feeling veri "on form" todae. juz wanna rest at home. it's ok girls!!! hope u get the job! bring mi for the interview someday oso ok?
i'm home alone the whole night! i dunno where my mother went to "havoc". haha. but i took a nap and studied abit.....hmm juz abit.
i tink i can...i hope i can. haha.
nothing wrong will happen-smiles.
Thursday, December 07, 2006
i skipped the first lesson and went for the 1 pm lecture todae.
i paid full attention loh!
hai. i'm alwaes lidat. gets all panicky at the las minute. hmmo.
anyway i had dinner at home todae. hmm there's alwaes good food when bro comes home. Jared is so cute and so missed by me. =)
oh oh ya. i bought a chain online and i received it todae! so nice. my com cnnt transfer pics =( will wear it out sometime!
i am supposed to start studying todae AGESS ago, but i cnnt bring myself to.
my mind is occupied. no more space to store my programming codes, my digital and analog signals and my binary numbers. argh. so OCCUPIED, so squeezy. HAHA.
i would do everything juz to.
i'm studying, studying and studying.
& i hate studying, studying and studying.
i was juz told on monday tt my first common test paper is on the following monday.
i believe i'm the last one in my class to know about it.
i dun wanna study! *sulks.
went to study after IS class todae. i kinda finish one module.
i dunno if i'll b able to make it juz pray for me!
in the night, i went to see a doctor for my pimples.
it's gettin worse! i'm having breakouts for no reason, and the nicest thing is i can't seem to stop it. and they are liek the size of a red bean. =(
cost me pretty much. i hope those red beans go off!
Lately you have been asking me..
If all my words are true
Don't you know I'll do anything for you.
Tuesday, December 05, 2006
Sunday : we went initially to "go make his leg" ( HAHAHAH. this is wad he alwaes says =X). OK so we wanted to go get his ankle treated but the place was already close. how sad! it will mean taking another day later to get it good again. =(
but we decided to relax at East Coast cos we were somewhere out there.
AND when we were there..........we spend half the time walking.....n walk walk walking.....
the sea is realli choppy tt day, it's not calm & it's feeling realli frantic. juz like me. =)
towards the end of the day, when we were settling home, i felt a surge of uneasiness again.
i am juz so annoying~
but.....it's nth wrong wif u. it's everything of u.
whenever i enjoy myself, the thought will juz come through me.
the happier i am with u, the more threatening the feeling becomes.
because, i know...this is going to pause....for sometime.
i dont mean to drip. i know u knew it, u always can see through me.
but somehow, i am touched, that even when i dont say it out, u understood every word of it, juz by looking at me=)
6 mths might seem short to some pppl.
but to me. letting someone impactful go for 6 mths is horrible.
i guess i nv will accept this fact.
and nv will i wan to.
Monday : so we tried again todae, after school and we made it in time to the clinic. =) i hope it gets better soon yes!?
by the time he came out of the clinic he is grumbling for food, so we went to some coffeeshop and ate Cai Fan. eew. doesnt taste good.
we took bus (buses, to be exact) home.but he slept through the whole journey.
well, i like tt. eh? haha i like tt u "enjoyed" ur sleep. =)
tiny thoughts ran across my mind again when i was in the bus alone home.
...juz veri tiny ones. ok?
Sunday, December 03, 2006
ok.
yes, i'm not fine.
no, i am fine.
i am still...
fearful, and upset, and angry, and...clueless.
i dont wan to face this.
but..come'on u have to.
juz go ahead, do wad u can. and if u can, things blossom,
but if u cannot, u juz have to walk back...alone.
now....i dont like to be alone.
i dont like taking long bus journeys alone, i dont like walking home alone, i dont like being alone in my room, staring at the ceiling, i dont even like being in the toilet alone to shit, piss or bathe.
bcos, i think. i alwaes THINK.
i gave u my word, i promised not to, but i'm not sure if i can.
but i met u todae. things got SOOO much better for me than yday.
things got lighter. i'm all smiles.
with sab. and wk.
we watched "the last kiss" at cathay.
late dinner at BK.
i tot wk and sab look cute. =)
then things fell FLAT. when i am goin home. esp when i'm totally alone on the bus.
i'm irritating. i feel irritating.
LOVES YA PPL. =)
Saturday, December 02, 2006
it's nearly 4am, and i can't bring myself to sleep. i am here to rant n complain. (onli "u" can gimme the "space" to write and listen quietly to me)
tell me will yea?
i already know i am.
i'm a coward bcos i cannot brave tis alone, and i am a coward bcos i noe, that i dont even have to try, to noe i cannot do this on my own.
y did u have to leave me alone here wif all the question marks???? and the uncertainties.
yes i can wait.
but so wad if i am patient?
who can give me a definite answer?
who can give me a promising future?
i.....am pain
is everything...happening for real? it is...isnt it?
Germany n Singapore are 7 hrs apart. which means it has to be around 9 pm there now. =)
Friday, December 01, 2006
because.......
i have a thing for you,
more than u'll ever understand.
i dunch want no gentle promises.
i aint no gonna fall for "wait for me" quotes.
and no, i aint not gonna be able to bear all these alone.
so.......
juz lemme be by ur side........can??
issit too much to ask for?
i dun wanna be disgusting..=(
Shhh.