my endearing companion left me, and my family
on the 30th March 2007, 3 in the morning.
i never want to accept this fact at all. EVER.
-nobody wags her tail at me when i come home after a long day,
-and nobody will dig their claws into my thighs or whines with pitiful eyes when she sees us indulging in delicacies.
-i will miss bringing her to the toilet together with me.
i pee on the toilet bowl, she pee on the floor.
-i will miss playing throw and fetch with her...she can run veri fast. =)
-i will miss adjusting the dustbins upright whenever i'm back home, bcos she will dig bins for food.
-there will be no one for me to scream for help when i see cockroaches, lizards, whatever there is. shes always there to kill those bugs for me. mind you, she never fails in catching them. =)
-i miss dusting myself off white hairs fallen from her body whenever i wear something black.
-i miss the ever so used to procedures of opening the refrigerator-open, throw a slice of apple to her, get what i want and close.
-i will miss her bugging me, whenever my alarm rings. she knows it's time i need to get up, and time for her meals.
-i will miss the timess when she notices i'm asleep at night and jumps up onto the bed to snuggle under the covers with me.
-i will miss her smelly and foul mouth. =)
this is not what i want.
this is not what we want.
this is not what Nikki wants too.
she has chosen to rest earlier.
i will continue the run for u Nik.
u've not left me totally,
bcos i kept u in that special place inside my heart.=_)
Wednesday, March 28, 2007
ok i know i hadnt been blogging in a "proper" way.
it's all those short and slip kinda posts.
i'll try to today.
LOL.
went to the animal hospital again.
=(
mommy took a half day leave just to follow us to the hospital.
we had a stroll at the mall, before meetin bro there.
i juz couldnt help but get this sour ache up in my nose when i see my nikki,
with the bandages on her front legs, her yellowish pale body thats lacking of blood, the drip she has to be on becos she isnt eating much.
and her pitiful watery eyes pleading for us to bring her home....
i wan to be watery with her.
but no, i will be brave for her.
seriously i might juz be frank,
things are not quite optimistic.....YET.
it will be.
nikki will be fine. shes my strong girl. =
well, baby wanted to meet up at jp after we're done visiting nikki.
i know he's soo sleepy and goin to collapse anytime.
still hes so sweet to initate the meetup. =)
u know whatever u do, i juz get cheered up.
plus he paid for my wallet. heh.
anyone will know i'm thirsty for a wallet!
nice?? at least, a good alternative to take my mind off that black one i saw and loved which is veri costly.
these.....are two of my loves, & what i'm gonna be putting in that transparent pocket of my new wallet.=)
that's.............all on a lighter note.
=(
nikki, u get well.
at
Tuesday, March 27, 2007
choo choo train enginehey niggas,
stomp the yard away yo.
i'm veri worried.
but i'm glad to have a warm and comforting honey bun around.
=)
everything will be well.
at
Monday, March 26, 2007
i need.....someone to speak to?
i'm down and lonesome and bored.
at
i'm pretty confident, honestlyi'm gonna be a good lover from now on.
u will be one too, for me, wont ya?
at
Sunday, March 25, 2007
am i weak or wad....?!
anyway
thanks, for always attempting to make me smile.
=)
dont forget me k?
heh.
at
Saturday, March 24, 2007
i'm including a cardigan to my updated wishlist. lol.
passion honey, passion.
:)
at
Thursday, March 22, 2007
dreadful day at woodlands.
shant go into details about my work day.
i got my timetable and it got kinda cock up.
tryin to figure it out.
freaking things for a freaking reason.
my wishlist is out!
with money, wishlist is able!
1) wallet, mine is deteoriating into thin air soon. (oh, one with a transparent compartment for fotos!)
2) face lift!
3) that topshop top i gotta get. (promise to weichoon LOL)
4) black 3/4 shorts/skirt (any will be fine, prefably both. heh)
5) black denim skirt (short!)
6) accessories
7) mascara (maybelline's volume turbo)
8) bras! (the last time i bought them.........i dun even remember i had to put them on)
9) something for honey bun! =P
10) ZOO! i wanna go ZOO! with honey bun!
at
Tuesday, March 20, 2007
another rightful day just passed by.
i'm gonna meet my Sunny tmrw!!!
it's been 2 wholemeal bread full of days. it wasn't easy. =(
i'm quite letting myself adapt to the place in Bugis.
quite. not just yet. but quite.
and it's time i need a haircut, some new outfits, including undergarments
(and speaking of undergarments, oh my, the last time i bought new ones was when the Beatles was at their limelights)
and some face lifts.
ok, so i stil can't beleive i've put on 1 drastic kilo.
i'm stil very bothered and can't quite get over it.
:S
i'm anticipating for the weekends.
it's gonna be blissfully spent.
thats my motivation to work i guess.
at
Monday, March 19, 2007
fret not, i'm still around!
i've been working like a bull for 3 days, including today PLUS the weekends.
i spend the weekends over at cineleisure, the preview lounge.
not for a movie, for a freaking reason, which is to work.
u dun do much selling, u juz giv makeovers to the uni students that attended the sessions.
i'm not holding anithing against them, but they have bad skin conditions. they REALLI do.
over and all, i kinda enjoyed the 2 days there.
the girls were/are nice, sab's there too. =)
the bonus point - they serve freaking good refreshments! the fried chicken, the egg and cheese sandwiches, and the mulberry juice drink!
and the best part - u take how much u want. and u get to eat for every of the 4 sessions on each day.
i'm like advertising for the seventeen magazine but no, u wont get to eat those ever again, sorry.
and oh, we went for a bbq at my aunt's on saturday.
i was sooooo heavy headed. i decided ta cab home with jason at 2 am.
anyway, they like my Sunnyboy. =)
&today, i'm back in Bugis. i made for frens, i made good sales, and i'm kinda beat out.
i dunno y i kp getting black outs.
time to change a "light bulb"?
one more day till i get to see the "Sun".
at
Friday, March 16, 2007
tml's another working day.
i need the income, plus the experience baby.
plus, it's goin to drag on for a loooong day.
had to hang out for another bbq at my aunt's.
but well!
life is so boring.
i juz wish things could change.
like mayb carrot could taste like ham or sth.
it's still "sunny" though!
heh
at
Thursday, March 15, 2007
my wish now,
is to see Sunny right away.
at
Wednesday, March 14, 2007
can i make my own cuckoo clock?
or even better, i print my own money.
yes, thats a fantasy.
at
Monday, March 12, 2007
today is wrong, in a very right way.
i think i caught baby's flu, but nvm, it shows i have something of him in me.
OK, it's sounds gross.
but u get heard me still. hows that?
HAHA.
do you know,
i've never felt so blissed before,
theres alot that u din say i felt every bit of it todae.
y huh?
i dunno what u do, but it's abracadabra.
i miss u like the shit out from my ass now.
=)
u know those fashionably-anorexic girls? (for those pea-brains out there, i mean models.)
how did they manage to do it?
i tink they eat juz 2 grains of rice per meal, plus half a sip of plain water.
and they probably do jumping-jacks while they're showering or something.
i wanna try, i COULD try.
den again the word try in the dictionary.com defines it as
"To make an effort to do or accomplish (something); attempt: "my effort+my persistency is probably a quarter of a 0.1, and with the greatest tendency to drop to an eighth of a 0.1 due to what ppl called it -the temptation.
i dread work, but i love the money.
i hate being bored, but i wan the freedom.
i wanna pass time, but i miss Sunny.
den how?
damn, this is supposed to be short.
i told myself "not more than 3 sentences"
i tink i've got 30.
at
i went to the field to catch sunny play a match.
a hockey match.
HAHAHAHAHAH ok was joking.
soccer match indeed.
and boy, i'm actually smiling bcos i'm feelin pretty well-off that i'm away from the torrid sun.
anyway i'm so uptight for sunny bcos hes sick and the sun is freakingly burning.
this is my all-time fav player
and this..is weikang, the nuthead.
(exits in glory LOL)
HAHAHAHAHHA. U'RE SO DEAD!!
so i swirled jp with sunnyboy and wk.
til i gotta leave for work.
and work is pretty much resembling,
& i'm about to say that it's once again a colorless/gloomy day when sunny came round to find me after work.
that......alone sums it all.
ok i'm about to faint. ( i woke up at 7 in the morning, and i WORKED not like u rich assholes)
sleeping nites!
at
Friday, March 09, 2007
i gave Sunny his shoes.
hope he likes it!
i think he does.
but damn i forgot to take a pic of it.
& for once i cook, i bake, to make it sound more appropriate.
sunny like egg tarts. so i bake egg tarts.
and so far i got onli complimentsss.
from like...2 people.
if it's a white lie...........
3 tarts means (_ ____ _)
i caught the "pursuit of happiness" with my "happiness".
honestly, if i were to lead a life lidat, i would hurl..at everything.
so sunny was sick on this 6 mth thingy.
i'm concerned.
please get well.
=(
tml's my training day with Gy at Bugis,
i'm so excited to be working with my best bud!
hope all's good!
at
Thursday, March 08, 2007
my lemon love~
the briefing for Fasio was all fine.
sab's got the job too.
and so beware, i will do up ur face like a baboon's.
not the baboon's ass though, the face itself.
now it dawned on me.
that girls that are happily clinged to have this kinda emotional disorder.
happens at occasions.
derangement? insanity? unsoundness of mind?
a common term will be known as "paranoia".
i presume it to be caused by an immoderate amount of love over a person. probably exceedingly.
then again, if there was a lack in the doses of love prescribed to u, u better halfs out there are goin to grumble.
so i leave it to u people to decide for the right amount.
sometimes to me,
everything juz felt so surreal when all's sweet and good.
den everything seemed so authentic when things are not up in the air.
i hope i learnt my lesson, my no. 1
on a lighter note, it's the 9th! in 8 mins or so.
and tat makes up half a wonderful year.
=)
it's gonna linger.
we're gonna linger.
at
Wednesday, March 07, 2007
sometimes,it all comes down to onli one thing.what i call the "pit hole ideology".a heart-shaped pit hole.i was into this.i mean, i tripped, i fell, with a heavy thump.it's sooo deep, i dunch know if i wil ever see myself facing the light again.there's the ladder, but i dun quite get to figure it in this pitch black dome.not that i wanna get out to be honest, i kinda like it here.often i banged my head here and there, but if i stil noe that my name is eaf (to show tt i'm realli fine, becos i could spell it backwards), then all's good.therefore, i'm staying put.i'm aware.i brought this upon myself,i chanced upon ur delightful piece of artwork (artwork, bcos i'm in awe while reading.),and speaking of discontentment & jealousy. which woman doesnt. but i kinda understand myself abit more, i'm pretty much a "wild tiger". but duncha worry a thing, everything's fine.tats a year ago, meaning 300++ worth of days ago.i'm pretty much tamed.if anything's to prove how some couples ought to slap on together,
i'm feeling a zit forming on the top right corner of my lips.
this, u should noe Sunny.oh ya, one more thing.if anyone juz asks about the girl that lives down tt pit hole.tell him,i dont live here anymore.
at
i woke up at 730am todae with a nightmare.as well as an asthma attack.oh man, it's scary.both the bad dream and the attack.hahs.
at
Tuesday, March 06, 2007
baby please.nez time, juz make sure u're too lazy to even remember me.where am i when u took up a mass part of my heart.
hurt.
at
shopping. with sabbie.bought shoes.shoesssss. =)$15 only!!! cheap cheap.had long john for lunch.oh no.i am feeling cautious again.i noe i noe i sound irritating.but it's realli increasingtake care of urself sab!-----------------------------------circle.circle.circle.heart.circle.circle.circle.circle.circle.
MISS YOU GREAT great!=(
at
Monday, March 05, 2007
hie.the whole morning/afternoon todae i'm alone at home.and i'm wearing a small t shirt with no shorts.HAHAHAHAHAHi'm not tryin to act sexy or anithing.juz bcos i was feeling hot.=Di finished the book called "Man from Perfect" by Andrea Semple yday.it's fun reading it, though i prefer "The Makeup Girl" from her.tts how Andrea Semple is.she alwaes has a way to keep my eyes glued to her books.i'm craving for the Hello Panda cookies now.the vanilla one.milk and raisins.tea and garlic.Sunny. sunny. sunny.tsk.how do i.
at
it's another new week to start with.another depressing week without him.oh well, i will juz have ta learn.9th is coming. where can we go.we cant do much with no cash.well. tts sad.i still have viva forever though. =)
at
Sunday, March 04, 2007
like that lo.like this lo.whatever lo.not nice lo.i dun care lo.this is it lo.anyway, i stil dun like pubs. LOL.HAPPY BIRTHDAY U PRETTY ONE!!!!
EVER STAY so 19!!
MUUACKSS.
p.s. hurry update the pics!!
at
Saturday, March 03, 2007
我不会怪你对我的伪装.
so u will still leave me afterall.
thanks for the promises,
though they are all empty.
=
still that doesnt change how much i feel for u
in here...<3>
shuddup.
at
Friday, March 02, 2007
thanks to gy.i got a job at fasio.i hope it turns out nice.i'm so wild.u're not perfect.but in any way, i juz couldnt see.the flaws.---------------------------------don't stop baby.LOL.
at
Thursday, March 01, 2007
and so.
i'm done with my day at work.
for a start, they gave me an XL shirt.
what. i'm not promoting for nightwear.
it's depressing when u get rejected by people.
but i try to contain it and approach as many ppl i could.
i only managed to get 2, and they were not even eligible for the membership.
so that left mi with a NIL.
hai.
the truth that made me dread working:
i nv like
those uncles sitting by the side drooling at u as if u're selling urself for the night.
and those chaps giggling like hyenas, asking if u wanna have fun.
ok.
and then i spend the whole evening out hunting for ppl, that i dint took my meal.
i didnt take lunch or breakfast or whatsoever.
and now my pain in the tummy is coming back.
plus! those shoes are new, n i had to bear the blisters that are grown out of the walkings i had done.
and they hurt when water touches it during showertime.
ouch.
luckily gy is there for me to make up my las hour of work.
=)
we chatted abit, and she brought me to eat the dessert she craves for behind parco.
anyhoo, this is the first and las day i'll ever be working as a "dragger" anymore.
becos Beverly smsed to say that all draggers will not have to work from tml onwards, and she has hell no idea wads goin on too.
which is good too.
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u ot klat annaw zuj i.
neeb sah yad ym woh u llet annaw zuj i.
tseb eht ot retteb eht morf .retteb ot doog morf .doog ot nettor morf. hserf ot elats mrof yad ym ekam dluoc u tot seawla i
mvn.
yas seawla u thaw ekil zuj
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at
Here are a few reasons why guys like girls:
1. They will always smell good even if its just shampoo
2. The way their heads always find the right spot on our shoulder
3. How cute they look when they sleep
4. The ease in which they fit into our arms
5. The way they kiss you and all of a sudden everything is right in the world
6. How cute they are when they eat
7. The way they take hours to get dressed but in the end it makes it all worth while
8. Because they are always warm even when its minus 30 outside
9. The way they look good no matter what they wear
10. The way they fish for compliments even though you both know that you think she's the most beautiful thing on this earth
11. How cute they are when they argue
12. The way her hand always finds yours
13. The way they smile
14. The way you feel when you see their name on the call ID after you just had a big fight
15. The way she says "lets not fight anymore" even though you know that an hour later....
16. The way they kiss when you do something nice for them
17. The way they kiss you when you say "I love you"
18. Actually ... just the way they kiss you...
19. The way they fall into your arms when they cry
20. Then the way they apologize for crying over something that silly
21. The way they hit you and expect it to hurt
22. Then the way they apologize when it does hurt. (even though we don't admit it)!
23. The way they say "I miss you"
24. The way you miss them
25. The way their tears make you want to change the world so that it doesn't hurt her anymore..... Yet regardless if you love them, hate them, wish they would die or know that you would die without them ... it matters not. Because once in your life, whatever they were to the world they become everything to you.
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